| sweetie, just because i think it's funny that you got a dui doesn't mean that i'm a mean, cruel, and immature person. don't flatter yourself please, because it wasn't hard to hear about what happened. i did not search and ask questions, someone told me, and yes i thought it was hilarious. that's my opinion. if you think i care what goes on in your everyday life, think again. maybe you finally learned you are not invincible. but if you didn't cool, do what you do. if anyone who i had a falling out with like yourself did something this dumb, i would probably think it was hilarious as well, so once again don't flatter yourself. example: grayse does dope or something, and that is hilarious to me. on a different note, erik told the youth tonight that he has resigned from the church. i cried during his whole speech, even though I had known he was leaving for a good amount of time. he is singlely the biggest influence in my life from the past couple years. i may not be the greatest person, but he knows i am working on it. and when he tells me how much i have GROWN UP and says he can picture me doing everything i ever dream, it makes me feel not only that i have accomplished a lot but that i am better than who i was about a year ago. i am. and maybe that is why i think i am better than you, because i know i am something completely different then you, and the truth is when it comes down to it, i am no fuck up. i will succeed, you will not. i have a great support system, erik, my mother, my friends near and far, who tell me how great and compassionate i am. what do your friends say to you? i hope whatever it is it makes you feel better, because from the outside looking in, you have so many issues that you have to sort out inside YOURSELF and grow up. i wish you luck. i may be "immature", or "mean" but i am also the person who spent a year finding out who i am, so at least i have a foot to stand on and an understanding of who i will be in the future and you seem to have no idea. i've been hanging out with people from my past lately, those of which have grown up as well. and it is one of the best feelings ever to hear from people you have always known is that i have grown up and matured. i am only me, i am who i am, and I never said any different. if there is one thing you should know about me is that i am who i am, and there is no changing me. so if i am bitter, i will be bitter. so if i laugh at you, why does it bother you? that is who i was before. i laugh when things are funny.... |
